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Goodbye to Crystal Meth

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By Pukanala Alcon

My dearest, most beautiful, most precious, most dependable Crystal Meth or so I thought you were. You and I’ve been together since I was 13 years old. I thought you were meant for me and I was meant for you. When I first started hanging with you, you made me feel like Superman. During my adolescent years there wasn’t a problem I couldn’t handle or a mountain too high to climb. I could overcome anything as long as I had you by my side.

After a couple of years together, you became the most important thing in my life. There was nothing I wanted to do or no one I wanted to be with unless I had you by my side. In high school my best memories were being with you and everything I did in school I did with you.

You were there when I had my first two kids and anytime I felt overwhelmed or suffocated I could always turn to you. Although my family and friends thought you were stealing me away, I was so devoted to you I told them they were all wrong.

Just to prove to them that you weren’t the reason I was failing in life, I left you behind and tried to go to college. Like a good friend that you were, it wasn’t long before you found me again. I tried to give you the cold shoulder but you were so convincing and loveable that I let you right back into my life again and this time we spent even more time together.

At the age of 24, my life was only about you. I was so in love with you that while being with you, I lost everything that I held close to me, like my family ,my friends, my kids and most of all, myself.

You consumed me and held me in the tightest grip until the age of 31. By that time you got me arrested, my home was raided twice, and even through that, I still found my way back to you – until one day you did what I never thought you’d do. You had my kids taken away by CPS. For 19 years, I’d been with you but that was the last straw.

So now I have to let you go not cause I have to or the judge says I have to or anyone else says I have to but because I want to let you go. This time I’m letting you go for good because you took away everything I ever wanted, my goals, my morals, my life, my pride, my heart, but not my soul. That was one thing you tried your best to take from me all those years when I was high and breaking the law but I wouldn’t let you have my soul.

So goodbye batu, goodbye to the load, goodbye to the high times cause there is no more room for you in my life. No more cloudy days, only sunshine, goodbye Crystal Meth. Aloha oe!


2 Responses to “Goodbye to Crystal Meth”

  1. bnakihei says:

    Well said my brother. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

  2. janelee says:

    Amen. You have accepted responsibility for the choices you made, that is the first step to healing your broken spirit. Whatever you did before is passed, its what you do now that counts. Don’t waste your precious time in recovery listening to others who continue to blame others for their downfall. When you hit bottom, you find the the pure love that you were seeking and that love will pull you out and over the top. We love you and pray that someday you will find joy and happiness with your children again.

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